So I figured I better just write something and post it and then maybe I'll get over it.
I went back on facebook the other night. Some people were sad to see that I'd lost my resolve. Some people gave me a hearty welcome. I was missed! Hurrah. Isn't it a lovely thing, to know you're missed?
When I logged in (it was that easy, by the way, to reinstate my account: just log in!) It's like those terrible break up/get back together/break up/ get back together experiences you always see people have in middle school. Middle age too I suppose. Anyhow, I digress. So I logged in... and you know that feeling you get when you come home after having been at a really nice hotel for a few days? That feeling when you walk in and your house looks sort of...dumpy? Well that's how facebook looked when I logged back in. Like a house after you've been in a posh hotel. Sorta strange. A little messy. Weird.
During my absence, I did prolly what you did. I went to work. I came home and hung out with my family. I got a new phone! Here's me, trying to figure it out:
It was troublesome at first, but I'm getting used to it.
I watched the Oscars.
During the Oscars, Pink came on singing Somewhere Over the Rainbow, as a Judy Garland tribute. Immediately I thought of my friend Stephanie and texted her to let her know. I knew that would thrill her to see that. I felt good, making her feel known. Isn't it also a wonderful thing, to feel known?
And then after a few back and forth texts, she texted, "I love that you know me so well"
That made me happy.
So that's all. Not much has happened. But you know, I read more. I wrote more in my journal, but not the story I'm working on. I just sat and breathed in the quiet of my living room. That was really nice. I think I'll do that some more.
Balance is nice.
So there you go.
1. It's good to know you're missed in an absence of sorts.
2. It's good to feel known (or to make someone feel known).
3. Balance is good too.
Happy Friday everyone!
if it looks so dumpy, why do you stay?
ReplyDeleteThat is a fantastic question and I'm glad you asked it because it made me think for a while. So my answer is...well, partly that when you return home from a hotel and it looks all messy...eventually it goes back to normal looking and you're frankly quite glad to be back in your own bed. And partly because I'm completely addicted which was why I got off (and back on) in the first place. And partly because I'm just figuring out if I can manage to balance it. Thanks for your question.
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