Tuesday, May 2, 2017

Elderly

So, I took the badger bus to Madison this week. In fact, I'm on it as I write this. (Thanks, free wi-fi)
The reason I took the bus?
Sciatica.
Yep. My lower back hurts so much, with shooting pain down my right leg, I have to get into child's pose every time I'm standing for more than 15 minutes. Hope you don't mind, professors, when I get up to do that in the middle of your lectures. Yep. Just what I need. Another reason to look weirder than I already do.
Well, that's what happens, I guess, when you're suddenly sitting constantly. Sitting in the car to Madison and back, sitting in class, sitting to work on papers and presentations....and of course being the most elderly student in my cohort. Older than some of my professors even.
Now.
I've never been one to get hung up on age. I'll tell you how old I am.
41.
Or am I 42?
What's 2017 minus 1975?
42. (Impressive, huh? I'm doing well in stats.)
So I'll be 42 this year.
So what!  I can't help the year I was born. Neither can you!
But this back pain and how long it's taking me to get back (back! ha!) on my feet out of child's pose is...
Bringing
Me
Down.

But, back to the bus.
Listening to music while gazing out the window at farms... it's reminding me of being on the bus in Estonia. (MY friend Harald deduced, of our two years in Estonia, we spent three full months aboard a bus.)
Which makes me think.
Well.. I've needed all 41 years and 11 months to get where I am now.
And I am bringing all that time with me...to my papers and presentations...to my presence in this program...my work and life and adventure experience. I couldn't be here...who I am...without it.
Even from on the dusty bus floor here in child's pose.
That's right. Nothing to see here.
Full circle, people.  Full circle.

3 comments:

  1. A wonderful bit of self-revelatory writing! So sorry you have to endure the dual agonies of sciatica -- meaning the pain and the floor perspective as you travel. My only means of empathy is the time I spent on the floor following inebriation. But that was long... and now my inspiration is in the twilight of a song... oh my! Sorry, I seem to have burst into a musical interlude!! Anyway, beautiful blog posting, and hope your various means of therapy rid you of that most unpleasant condition, and soon!!! With love and hugs, and healing thoughts... Joel

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    1. Oh Dad. I love you! This one made me laugh so much I read it out loud to my fellow doc students.

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  2. Have to agree with Dad. Loved the
    "Bring
    Me
    Down"
    I could feel the thud. Be well.

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